Wow, I knew I hadn’t been blogging for a while, but close to a YEAR! I’ve blogging, but on other platforms. Now I’m BACK 😉 So here we go.
Happened to drive by (actually park) the very first place I lived in when I moved out from my parents’ home.
Many thoughts came to mind.
For those of you not familiar with how it works in Sweden, I rented it on a second contract, which means that you rent it of either, whoever owns it, or whoever happens to currently have the first contract with the owner (crazy, I know, but shortage of accommodations been an issue in the Sthlm area for decades). This means you commonly pay a bit more – or a lot more – in rent.
Though at that time it was SO important to me to get my own place.
To be independent.
That place was a nice place and it did give me peace to know that I had found by myself and it gave me the sense that could take care of myself too.
And as right according to the ways of the Universe, it’s located very close to the place I lived in for my first three years of this life experience.
Part of reason I got it was that I had the strange idea that I had to ‘prove’ myself. That I had to show that I could take care of myself. Little did I know there is NOTHING to prove to anyone.
And I was in a hurry to do it too.
As it were I still lived fairly close to my parents’ home and so where there a couple of times a week anyways, but I still had my own place to go to whenever I desired.
Oddly enough I never did like the place much. It was a place to be me and find solitude, yes, but it never felt like home. Mainly cause it really wasn’t (second contract), but also because during the short time I was there many things happened that might have been seen as a sorting time.
I figured out what I did NOT want – in big ways (such as I realised that my up until then lifelong dream of being a jockey was actually a career I wanted nothing to do with).
I also aligned myself better with what I did want and who I was then.
Shortly after I sorted myself better, I did receive a place that was mine. I was way more who I really was and THAT place did feel like home for the years I stayed at it (and brought many fond memories).
My point here is that you will ALWAYS know where you’re at cause you can FEEL it!
And you can correct the path your on by simply paying attention to how you feeling at this very moment. If it feels odd or any form of negative, like a struggle or anger or fear, then you simply figured out a part that you do not desire.
MOVE ON! Find thoughts that make you feel good and, I promise you, the Universe will conspire to make that happen for you! Just make certain you keep in those vibrations of what feels good to you.
All is well.